What's on offer?

Detached is a state that is relatable to me mostly. But can’t claim to have understood this concept fully. Certain human interaction makes me ponder on this and my habit of hoarding of things makes me really think otherwise. With people mostly I am is what I can safely say. Isn't that scary I am attached to things but not with people, which annoys most of the people who love me. Maybe because things don't get attached to you and don't expect. People like entanglement while I like to keep things simple.

It's not that feelings are nonexistent, I do feel deeply when someone is mistreated and would want to do my small bit to make his/her life a bit better. Especially if it is a woman I might do it more. Mostly do things in a flow without expectations, or are they still lurking somewhere?

I would love to be in the company of people who love you no matter what, you don't need to stage a thing to please them. In the recent grieving period of my dad, a lot of people reached out and showed their support and concern. I was incapable of asking for help, somehow I think people are incapable of helping with our most vulnerable feelings, mostly learning from the depression cycles that I went through in the past. That means even if a person reached out with good intentions I had to ignore to protect my inner self from being hurt more. It made me think of my connections with others, in dire need, there is no one whom I would turn to for help instead of handling it myself which might be a less efficient way to do it. But that's what my gut as of now tuned to.