What woman want ? — careerwise
Oh, we want a lot of things. Don’t guilty us we are very very needy and we know what we want. Some others here don’t know or don’t know to express it and resent. So we are better we atleast knows.
This is a series, here elucidating only about career path, others on the way in coming blogs.
No, we need not have this clarity on career all the time. I can tell you my case when in 20s I had this illusionary need or want to this perfect professional, may be influenced by conditioning I had. Be born, grow good ( complaint), study, get a job, and be successful. This was the path defined. So most of the steps after “be born” were done to perfection, but “be successful “ was a bit hazy. How and what is success? No one made me understand. So by looking around as a young professional concluded that it should be excelling in work and doing more work and becoming a manager. The problem with that strategy was that the software work wasn’t something that sparked any interest in me, so anything done for it never came near being good, excellence huh… was far, far away. But being a mother was somehow great, which was happening in parallel. Those mushy hormones that naturally get created help, I guess. So wasn’t disoriented fully, but there was a hole in the core that always raised questions. So here see I knew what I didn’t want. That’s clarity even. But then didn’t think of it that thought of it as failure to be that trained abiding person to do well being an engineer. In our times, you can be either an engineer or doctor or failure. So I was the engineer. The easiest, being a doctor, needs a little more something which was missing for sure. In the tech field, if you are an introvert and good working alone, it creates trouble in “growth path” defined. You are supposed to be a manager, but you can’t even talk to a person confidently, nor can you break down your work. So how are you gonna manage another person’s work. So it was total chaos.
Gladly got veered into a new field of digital marketing by serendipity. A great conducive environment setup by my partner, I pursued. But then, as usual, self-doubt crops up as you are switching paths after a decade. Gladly persisted and am now thriving on it. Once the interest in this was figured, it became easier to manage a team. So be born , grow, study, get a job, hate the job, change the job, struggle, thrive, was the path chosen. So how successful it is, this path, no idea still, but its makes sense to do it this way.
The struggle to settle in what I want as career is now feeling to be “found” till I might change, as we all do. After living almost 5 decades is when this realisation donned. Yes would have been better if clarity was there as to what I want in early 20s or even late teens. But I knew what I didn’t want, that pain or vacuum which it triggers in you also was felt. So whenever something to be done till last, would be governed by
“ Do I enjoy it, Hella let’s do it” , otherwise Na
