What is it ? Or what it isn’t? 40s discovery

Is it evolution? Or just a flip? Or, just as they say, a minor blip(to be put under the carpet)

No, it can’t be just a flip. It builds up over in the late 30s. (as I experienced)

This built up, I can’t vouch for men. For women, it’s more predominant.

Women tend to be more conditioned by their growing years and the people around them. You act/think as per that in most ways.

The conditioning is so deep-rooted that you tend to realize that if you continue with it, it might be passed on to your offspring. Not all is good, you realize, as a legacy.

You aren’t happy to pass on this to your precious offspring. You aren’t sure how not to and are more perplexed for him.

The change you tend to put in not to pass on is humongous. Most times, the process makes you question yourself.

These questions and process could even be shattering who you believed you are . But you have a inner will to still do itmore for your offspring.

The effort put in for your offspring is never enough on all fronts. At one point in the process, you realize it’s more for you than for him.

Then, it’s a journey that others could perceive as insanity and can be labeled as they know it best. But the inner compass always tells you to push further as you know there is an end to this grueling tunnel.

The push or the pull can be tiresome and spiraling. But it’s worth it as it brings you back to yourself, which was, deep inside, ruined by growing up. It’s a gift for yourself.