The version 110, redefined.
Just as animals who undergoes moulting, we all need to remove things from us to reveal what matters. I Guess!
That can be a difficult task as well as we like what’s ours! Classic hoarders that we are… There is a habit of drinking tea later in the evening, which has all the potential to interrupt otherwise non-existent sleep, but still, that tea and kadi can’t be skipped. So goes with certain beliefs… I am not good with people and et all. We like to hold on… explanation being that’s how I had been.. so how to shed ?
Over the years, the changes are generally gradual and becoming to the 110 version of self. 110 a rough estimate of avatar upgrade we all go through. In this version of myself , things which are dear are many. Some which can be listed are to keep the plans private the first one.
Before, it used to be a practice to talk of plans and bore others of yours and not listen to theirs. To top it, a mental comparison of yours with theirs and grade them and feel either pathetic or happy about how I graded them. Obviously, going to indiranagar is better than going to marthahalli. Isn’t it? So now I don’t tell you my plans, I execute mine and if you want to tell me yours, I will do my best to listen to yours and respond also.
Move silently, just crawl or slither by. Nothing but a more subtle non-existence when in a social existence. You are not on their radar … you are way below, its a skill that is to be practised. So there is no attention to you or your activities, so lesser opinions to deal with, you already have enough in our minds to deal with.
The third being circle that you keep and interact with is to be tiny.
Is it even a circle? two of us can we be called a circle? Version 110 has very little energy, so conserving it from having to interact with friends of friends or even those friends moved on to be acquaintance. Limited and quality interaction nutures this version.
Ideally, prayers they suggest should be louder, in this versions case its more of just observing what is being told to self. Yet to figure out what did wise mean by that louder prayers.
Heart is happier, yes less heavier from prejudices, guilt and judgements.
Is life peaceful ? In comparison lesser complex things to deal with and more understanding of what those thoughts and emotions mean.
So in nutshell what’s version 110
A bit more defiant to the patriarchal system and vocal about it. Labels the patriarchs as themselves. Judges them, too.
A lot less people to be called friends. So basically a loner or one who loves solace… yes it’s that.
A lot of activities to do with self and a company to do it is a bonus.
Reads emotions of others more than their actions. Is it good.. no, it’s hectic… It’s a lot to process. Sometimes helpful, other times run for therapy.
See the real self and others so there are lesser fantasies, expectations and illusions.
My space is mine, I can be snappy to protect it and no guilt with that.
Would extend myself only if its absolutely OK with me, that’s after my reading is done, my movements are done and ofcourse if at that point my mood permits.
Lesser body shaming, curvy is indeed sexy and perimenopausal body needs to be active, stronger, and resilient than skinny, hair free, and blemish free.
Gut tells you the best. If it tells you you need to have that chai and pazhampori just after lunch, it’s right. So also when it says this man isn’t good to be around, no questions asked “as you wish my guttural instincts” let’s move away or ask him to.
