Rebel or Lover
Am I a lover or a rebel?
Rebel most of the cases in the recent past. Lemme explain the context here. I am talking about the expectations here for constantly doing things. When I am mounted with expectations, which in most cases unreasonable accordingly to me, I tend to be a rebel. Than do it with love or even inkling of liking. There can be a condition when I went about doing the task, without being in there. This had been the case most part of the life. Put a pleasing face and do it for the sake of doing. So there is no mind in it or kept doing by being triggered immensely within. This was never shown and such a waste.
Learnt from the experience that by doing so, I had been troubling myself and getting things done without much thought to it. Rather realised that this time could have been spent doing things which I could enjoy or even “Doing Nothing”. This is also a alien concept, some of us are conditioned to do things always. Doing nothing is for lazy ones I am told. Hustle away without a rhyme and reason, or for keeping yourself busy, so that you just drop dead sleeping at the end of the day with a lot of regrets of having not done enough and no gratitude.
I want to be perenially in love, of doing nothing, or doing things with enjoyment or doing things with congruence with the environment and not to the expectations of none, but for sheer love of doing it.
