Empty Nest Series — 8 — So this is that.

So the empty nest feeling is this! We just left him in the dorm a few hours before…

Just after that felt a feeling of void, so this is the real feeling which some of us in world is gagaing about. That feeling of not being there with you most of the time. Or is it that feeling of pride that you were able to set him free and be contented about it? No, it is the feeling that you are not with that constant warm fussy love all the time. It could be that vacuum feeling that I can feel from my throat to the stomach, as though all of my inside is carved hollow. It is definitely a sense of a big loss of presence that nobody else can fill in. Is it definitely a sense of hope that we would be in touch with all the new exciting happening in his life and we are almost 8301 miles apart most of time?

Or is it the sense of helplessness that you anticipate you would feel when you cannot help him when he needs it and you wouldn't be even aware of it? It's definitely a big lump of hot mass that would be carried on the chest which is just my own and not anybody else's.