Empty Nest Series — 19 — The Ancient, Extant, and Imminent of ours.

Whatever communication channel options we have with all the tech around, still The Ancient aspects of ours are always a solace. What did I mean by this?

The Ancient of ours is almost 18 years of our life together which was filled with a lot of joys, achievements, apprehensions, pressures, adjustments learnings, and much more. In the extant now, I draw inspiration from some of our time together to make some decisions, what would we as a unit have done is a factor now ingrained. I do revel in some of yours or ours as a unit achievements, just reminiscing over a cup of tea, just to gloat I guess. Glad I trained myself not to think of other pressures that we have had, as I would like to weigh them with the joys and they always superseded them.

There are certain “ancient” feelings that need purging as well. In those times, any move, or decision that was made had you in the picture, what if he needs me in the evening or while he does this, would come to me, how much ever I condition myself. And this feeling still comes back ironically. Which then I have to smile at and remind my extant to myself of. Sometimes timelines do confuse me, it is a matter of time to get used to the present and then such fleeting thoughts would come, and I wouldn't need to smile at it. It would just fade away. And at one point these won't just come at all.

Now dealing with imminent, however wise we get, we tend to think of this. It's hard not to get entangled with the thought of major portions of it devoid of you in your presence, but I am sure you in essence are inevitable. You don't have a choice for that.