Disillusioned

Yes, I am of human relations, too complex to comprehend. Sometimes I resign to not decoding certain things, but it hits me hard at certain times. People want to see actions that you love them and if you don't then you are not even patted to cry on your father's demise. None in the world came to me and allowed me to call in their company. I had to do it myself.

Now from my learnings over these recent years, you reap what you sow I guess. Must be something that I have done over the years people assumed I didn't need that. I had to seek a therapist's help to explore some of what I felt about this life-changing incident. This being a big event I took notice and was a bit affected by this, how the world treats.

But I am clearly disillusioned even minor interactions that are ignored and in the same setting someone else's actions are regarded.

At this point, I am resigning from everything and doing whatever I can as usual to my best knowledge.