Darkle and Y
I should have sparkled, as common belief goes, everything is going well for you and there is nothing to regret or worry about. So Why not sparkle? Even if you have they are just minor ones, the man on the road just does not even have a slipper to protect his feet. Compare and contrast and you should feel good.
Darkling away, to fully feel it and to understand it, is not something that is popularly encouraged. You are either told to think otherwise when in that dark state, you can't even think of getting up and grabbing a glass of water. But you are advised earnestly to alter your thinking. You obviously would fail in it and that adds to your misery.
The Darkle as it appears, once felt full and may be understood or made some sense of it, would pass is what I am trained now. We might get caught up in the thought that we might get consumed by the loop and just not get out. Which I now understand isn't practically possible. Maybe it is just a facet of you that needs expression and to be given a little space to get out and play. Once played and exhausted, she would be happy to converse or even rest and not be a burden on the chest.